I wish I had......

Cover of You've Got Mail

I wish I had hugged my granny and papa more, I wish I had known the last days on our farm were the last days, I wish I had known the days would get so much shorter as I got older, I wish the words my sister would say to me about all those Cokes catching up to me wouldn't hover in my head as well as my hips. I wish I would have continued playing tennis after college. I wish I had been a better student, I wish I had the nerve to really be what I was meant to be, I wish I had paid more attention to my feet, I wish I had given much more thought to the clothes I wore during my 20's. I wish I had not cared so much about what people thought of me, I wish I were a better woman, I wish I could spare my kids the pain of failures and hard-headedness, I wish the gravitational pull wouldn't concentrate on what seems like only my body all the time, I wish I had a million dollars(keeping it real here, everyone wishes for that, I might as well say it out loud!) I wish spring was the constant season until a month of fall and skip straight through to spring again, I wish I had a zillion Daisies all over my yard to keep me smiling, I wish the politicians would shut up and get something done for once, I wish Downton Abbey would play everyday on PBS and not end and make us wait so long for new season...as well as Mad Men!, speaking of television shows...I wish Sandra would come back on Property Virgins and Dallas would come back sooner and all my guilty pleasure shows would stay only slightly crazy and not go full on nuts. I wish somethings would never change, I wish my tooth socket would hurry up and heal for petes's sake!, I wish I had a maid, I wish I had a maid....so good I had to wish it twice...I wish our children would find the best girlfriends/boyfriend for them and live in love the rest of their lives (a momma can dream big ya know) I wish the weight would just drop right off like the ad claims it would, I wish I could travel to NYC and live for about a month in a brownstone in a beautiful part of town like on You've Got Mail, I wish my blog would be read by lots of people and eventually be on FRESH PRESSED!, I wish I could watch cool birds in my back yard...I miss the huge Woodpecker that visited us for a season back at our old house as well as the little BlueBird that is like the one on Snow White....I nearly cried it was so sweet, I wish I could eat lobster again and since I am on that subject...shrimp and crab legs, I wish they were in abundance and not so expensive and I could eat them all the time along with great salads and vegetables grilled. I wish I could see again a few of my old friends from my younger days and it would be the same, I wish I was all shiny and new again, I wish everyone could get the whole GOD thing and I wish I got it better, I wish I could see a butterfly everyday, I wish I had a million dollars...bears repeating! I wish my hair would not go gray ever and be light blond highlights naturally like it was when I lived outside which brings me to I wish I wasn't such an indoor person, I wish the red-hot jawbreakers weren't oh so Cinnamon-y....too hot!, I wish I could sing really good, I wish I had my own computer that no one else ever uses, I wish I could go back in time and have some do-overs, I wish I had a cat that never sheds and just cuddled, I wish I had the good sense I have now way back when, I wish I could talk to my daddy and I wish with that one that I will see him in heaven, I wish I could go to the carnival that came every summer to Cowan, TN., it was the best one ever and I wish I could belly laugh again while riding the Himalayan with my sister Jan, I wish I had been in the cool kids group in high school and not so awkward (I was on the cusp of that crowd...just barely even noticed but just almost there) I wish my sons TV didn't play constantly even when he isn't home, ugh!(gotta go up the steps and search for controller which is impossible) which brings me to I wish I had found a one story home this time! I wish LOVE was seen as a verb all the time and we spoke it daily, I wish it wasn't so hard to wake up every day, I wish my sister that was two years older had not died when she was a baby...I bet we are a lot alike!, I wish friends wren't so hard to come by, I wish I had watched my weight do more than quadruple.....should a paid more attention to that one!!! I wish I could wear Levi's and plain white shirts all the time, I wish stuff didn't bug me so much with my inner me screaming out all the time in my head just like the episodes of Seinfeld when Elaine is trapped on the subway and the power goes off and the train stops and she is trapped and begins to talk to herself in her head....I do that all the time, nerve-racking! I wish so many wishes that it will have to be continued...I wish I had more patience to continue now...till nextime....I hope!