How big is your cross? What a question huh?who do I think I am asking something like that? Just thinking out loud here....is the cross I have to bear anything to whine about in the light of the man who actually did give his life on that real cross? Uh...that would be a big fat NO! Yet it is still mine and with that in mind my question is....when am I going to get past it? Thinking out loud here but sometimes my cross seems as big as this huge one in the picture..like an albatross around my neck, never seemingly able to shake it. Probably because I am my own worse enemy...I am usually the one who gets myself in a pickle. What is the fear... Or the fret that keeps holding me back? These are the times that cause me to question my decisions from the past, just yesterday I was reminded of a graphics job I turned down!( stupid, stupid, stupid!) but in my own defense it was even before we moved to Nashville four years ago. I got scared....lost my nerve, I had a huge family move to make, had no place to move to yet and it seemed too daunting. They were even going to give me time off to move ...Grrrrr! What was I thinking? At the time I felt it would be too much, and I also hoped we could survive on one income but considering the cost of living in the big city...WRONG! so now I am second guessing myself which is self destructive of course. But as any good worry wart does true to form I am wondering what if? I suppose the wise thing to say is "silly thang! Ya wanna turn into a pilar of salt?" No! So okay... I ask God to be in control of my life so he knew what I needed to do so......what's all the hub bub about? Just me needing to remind myself though my cross looks huge it pales in comparison.
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And just think ... He sufferred for us. We may be tested and tried but we know that 1 Corinthians 10:13 is still true! Thank you Jesus!
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