Friends

Sometimes I ask myself the question...? Why do I need people? I have family members who would prefer to not really ever have to mingle, bother with or even have to hang out with anybody, ever! The say they don't play well with others...wonder why? Is there something that happened to them as a child that made them reclusive? Is is a defect from birth? Okay..I will flip that thought pattern, why do we like to be with other people? What makes someone like me be so needy to be needed? I don't think that I have a birth defect or some kind of horrific incident that happened that makes me want to hangout with others. I agree people can be sooooo aggravating at time, even annoying, I can be too. But at the same time when you run across someone who you really do like, who makes you laugh or is so fun to talk to, well then it is all worth it. I seem to get frustrated with the inability to find people who want to know you....I know we all are busy, but really is it that hard to be a friend? I can count on one hand my closest friends. Why do I wonder...Jesus had 12 and really only 3 very close ones, and as it turns out they even turned their backs on him for a short while. They did rally around but only after he was dead and risen again. He even gave them a second chance! I am thankful for those second and third and fourth chances...I pray I am a better friend, Lord help me to be and to be a friend to the friendless.