Chronic Pain

I have no idea what I would be talking about when it comes to chronic pain ... I have only had five days of agonizing hurt all over tooth pain! But it has been plenty to wake me up to the fact that it ain't no fun! I am sick of it and I realize how much time I have been wasting before this. And shame on me for all the wasted time I have had....shame on me for my sloth-like behavior as if all I had to do was hang from a tree and eat fruit! What went wrong...when did I become that person? When did I give up on my life and give in to a life of laziness? I would guess when my kids got older and I had no need to run after them...my last one kept me young, at thirty six he was a fun gift to us all, a joy and a blessing. Poor kid, born too late to enjoy the special war like comrade of being raised with siblings your own age, I know the feeling because it happened to me too. I too grew up the baby, precious to all but nobody ever wanted to play with me! They were always too busy, teenagers that had a big life, much to do! He has felt the same rejection. So recently when he informed me that his dad and I are old and he wished we weren't because we never want to do anything! We do stuff...go out to eat, the movies once in a while, um ok I'm out! Oh boy! Reality! Ouch! I hate to admit it but he is right. I am tired... Sadly. From what though? From doing nothing! Inactivity! This little episode of chronic pain has been real, and a for real wake up call to change my life. I have a list of body parts that have jumped ship on me, why not I'm not using them! Time to get my chronic lazy behind up and get moving. I am on the verge of waiting to late. I would say, if the Lord will help me I will work everyday to get active again, but that is a cop out! He will and is always trying to help me. I just have to do it! My chronic pain will pass... I know two young ladies that have lived their whole young lives in wheelchairs and walkers, I am humbled by their bravery ....they still wait on their healing, faithful every day never stopping and continuing to live a big life. Shame on Me for giving up! So it may be slowly but I will do something each day to improve my life, to enrich my sons life, to be a good example not one of self destruction. Chronic health and joy is my new cause, for my future and my own family. Mercy!